Hillel, what's the story with Hillel? אמרו עליו על הלל הזקן, they said about הלל הזקן, שבכל יום ויום, okay, היה עוסק, he would work, ומשתכר בטרפעיק. All he would make every day is a טרפעיק. A טרפעיק is a very very small amount of money. Stuck in traffic. I was stuck in traffic, yeah. He made a טרפעיק. חציו היה נותן לשומר בית המדרש. Half of his earnings he would give to the guard of the yeshiva because they wouldn't let you in unless you paid. So he would pay half of his salary, וחציו לפרנסתו ולפרנסת בני ביתו. And half, which is so little, he would use for his parnassah and for his family. פעם אחת לא מצא להשתכר, one day he didn't make any money. Couldn't find and he didn't make anything. ולא הניחו שומר בית המדרש לכנס, so the guard of the shul, of the yeshiva, didn't let him in. But he wanted to learn. עלה ונתלה וישב על פי ארובה, so he went and got up at the skylight כדי שישמע דברי אלקים חיים מפי שמעיה ואבטליון, so he should be able to hear the godly words, the Torah, from שמעיה ואבטליון. אמרו, they said, אותו היום ערב שבת היה, it was Friday, ותקופת טבת היה, was middle of טבת, freezing, וירד עליו שלג מן השמים. He lay down on the skylight to listen, and it was snowing on top of him, and it covered him. כיון שעלה עמוד השחר, this was at night, it came early morning,

אמרו לו שמעיה לאבטליון, so Shemaiah said to אבטליון, אבטליון אחי, my brother אבטליון. It's an expression even though in Kabbalah it says that Shemaiah and Avtalyon actually were brothers. The pshat they weren't, they weren't, but he called him like my brother, my friend. בכל יום הבית מאיר, every day at this time it's light here, והיום אפל, today it's dark. שמא יום המעונן הוא, maybe it's a very cloudy day. הציצו עיניהם, they picked up their eyes and they looked, וראו, they saw דמות אדם בארובה. They saw the shape of a person in the skylight. עלו, they went up, ומצאו עליו, and they found on him רום שלש אמות שלג, three amot. The minimum amount of three amot is is four and a half feet of snow on top of him. According to other shiurim it might be six feet of snow or four and a half snow feet snow. Huh? How many amot? Three אמות. Three אמות, three אמות. If an אמה is 18 inches, then it's four and a half feet. פרקו, they took him off, they took him away, ורחצו, this was Friday, ורחצו, they washed him, וסכו, and they smeared him, והושיבוהו כנגד המדורה, they put him by the the fireplace, and אמרו, they said, ראוי זה לחלל עליו את השבת. In other words, his life was so in danger, he deserves, he could be מחלל שבת. Pashut, yeah, he was going to die, they wouldn't find the figure. It would be middle in at night, and they wouldn't realize that it's supposed to get light and they wouldn't look, he could have died. So he deserves to be מחלל שבת. So mimela, this shows as a, he was very poor and he still learned Torah. So we tell the poor man, your teretz is you were poor, you couldn't learn Torah, it's no excuse. Look, you you're not as poor as Hillel, and Hillel still learned Torah, so you can also learn Torah. This is a

story, it reminds me of the story of the Tzemach Tzedek, a similar story. By the Tzemach Tzedek. In the oven, yeah. The Tzemach Tzedek was still a little boy, and there was a time that the the Alter Rebbe said a maamarim, his maamarim, and he would say it only to certain adults and they wouldn't let him in. And the room that the Alter Rebbe was saying the maamar, there was a wall, and in middle of the wall there was an oven for the fireplace. So one side was in this room, the other side was in the other room. So the Tzemach Tzedek wanted to go in, he was a kid still, and he couldn't get in, they wouldn't let him in. So before the time he went into the oven כדי he should be able to come to this side of the oven, and from the oven he should be able to hear. People didn't know that. It was cold, so somebody came, put in wood in the oven, in the other side of the oven and put in lit it up, and started it started to to warm up. And it's in the Alter Rebbe's house, and it started getting smoke and this, and I guess he started making noise or something and they realized he was, they went and took him out and he was already unconscious, I think, the story goes, and they revived him. And that's when the Alter Rebbe gave him a bracha, I forgot already what he said, something that the Alter Rebbe said, I must remind myself what he said, but this is the same story like this. He was The Rebbetzin, the Alter Rebbe's Rebbetzin, she come like yelled at the Alter Rebbe? The Rebbe, yeah. Why I always heard that that was an interesting Yeah, yeah, yeah. That part, that's true. She came, she gave the Alter Rebbe mussar. Yeah, חלק! Why why did you, why not allow him? Look look what you caused the boy! Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, yeah. So, Hillel put himself in this Hillel put himself in a position for possible for them to מחלל שבת on his behalf? He didn't put, no, he didn't want that. He went to learn Torah. He didn't even realize that it was snowing, I can guarantee you that. No, he didn't realize it was He went there But he didn't realize it's going to snow. He went there and while he's listening to the Torah, and it snowed on him and became colder and he didn't even feel it. So finally, finally he fainted and something, became how do you know אח is a brother? Why do we assume that? Cuz the fact it says אחי doesn't mean brother. A lot of times the Gemara says אחינו, we learned a Gemara before. That's no ra'ayah. Not a ra'ayah, this this is not a ra'ayah. No, no, no, no. But this is not where the Kabbalah is getting No. Could be. They say al pi zeh this is seemingly pshat, this is אחיו. This is for a poor man. לעשיר, for a rich man, when he comes למעלה אומרים לו they say to מפני מה לא עסקת בתורה? Why didn't you learn Torah? אם אומר, if he says עשיר, I was rich, וטרוד בממוני, he's busy. Such a so many, such a business. אומרים לו, we tell him כלום היה עשיר יותר מרבי אלעזר בן חרסום? You think you're richer than Rabbi Elazar ben Charsom? What's the story?

אמרו עליו על רבי אלעזר בן חרסום, it's said about רבי אלעזר בן חרסום, שהניח לו אביו אלף עיירות ביבשה he actioned from his father 1,000 cities on land, on dry land, וכנגדן אלף ספינות בים, and 1,000 ships in the ים full of, loaded, I guess, with stuff. ובכל יום ויום היה נוטל נאד של קמח, every day he took like a jar of flour על כתיפו, on his shoulder, ומהלך מעיר לעיר וממדינה למדינה, he went to a city to city, from country to country, ללמוד תורה, to learn Torah. And he took along some food for himself and learned Torah. פעם אחת מצאוהו עבדיו, once his servants, his slaves, saw him. They didn't know who he was. They knew that they was they're working for Elazar ben Charsom, but they never saw him, they didn't know who he was, so they see this guy drinks over there, fosters via Angaria. So, they said, the men started making him work. They didn't recognize him, so they said, you're you're obligated to work for the for the master. אמר להם, he said, בבקשה מכם, I beg you, הניחוני, let me go, שאלך ללמוד תורה. I want to learn Torah. אמרו לו, they said, חיי רבי אלעזר בן חרסום, we swear by the by the life of רבי אלעזר בן חרסום, שאין מניחין אותך. We won't let you. הלך ונתן להם ממון הרבה כדי שיניחו אותו. He went, I'll pay you money. Let me go. He gave him a lot of money, but he wouldn't tell him who he was. ומימיו לא הלך וראו אותם, he never saw them again, but he gave him money. אלא יושב ועוסק בתורה כל היום וכל הלילה, he sat and learned Torah all day and night. So, they tell a guy, you're rich, you think you're richer than him, and he sat and learned Torah. He became a Kohen Gadol, too. Huh? He became a Kohen Gadol. Yeah. Yeah, he's one of the names, the numbers. Rasha, for a

רשע, אומרים לו, they tell a רשע מפני מה לא עסקת בתורה? Why did you learn Torah? אם אומר, he says, נאה היה, Did he buy his way in? No. Okay. No. נאה היה, he was nice, וטרוד ביצרו היה, he says, what's I have I'm a rasha. It's not a big yetzer hara and I'm busy. I was busy doing things that the yetzer hara wants me to do and I couldn't help myself. אומרים לו, they say to him, כלום נאה היית יותר מיוסף הצדיק? Well, you were more handsome? Cuz since I was handsome, so I had all these yetzer hara. You're more handsome than Yosef? אמרו עליו על יוסף הצדיק, it said about יוסף הצדיק, בכל יום ויום every day, היתה אשת פוטיפר משדלתו בדברים. Every day, she bothered him with words. בגדים שלבשה שחרית, לא לבשה ערבית. She made sure that he's getting dressed nice. She gave him clothes. Whatever he wore in the morning, he didn't wear in the evening. ערבית, whatever he wore in the evening She She dressed him. No, she gave him. No. לבשה. לבשה herself? She wore for him. She dressed him. Yeah, Rashi, I didn't see. She לבשה? No. No. לבשה בשבילו, לו, בשבילו. She dressed so he should have a תאוה. ערבית לא לבשה שחרית, and whatever was night didn't wear didn't wear in the morning. אמרה לו, she said to him, השמע לי, listen to me. אמר לה, he said to her, לא. No. אמרה לו, she said to him, הריני חובשתך בבית האסורין, I'll put you in jail. אמר לה, he said to him, ה' מתיר אסורים. ה' releases those that are in jail. אמרה לו, she said, הריני כופפת קומתך, I'm going to bend your your I'm going to cause you to be bent over. ה' זוקף כפופים, ה' makes the ones that are bent over stand straight. Beat him up so that it hurts him. That's bent this way. Oh, but bent, that means I'll make you bend backwards. In the Midrash, no? But the Midrash, I mean, no one would make that up. She would hold a knife cheese She wanted him to to look at him. She was crazy. הריני מסמאת עיניך. She said, I'm going to blind your eyes. He said, ה' פוקח עורים. ה' makes the people who are blind, makes them see. נתנה לו אלף ככר כסף She gave him a 100 ככר כסף. 1,000. 1,000 I meant 100 cuz a ככר is 100, sorry. 1,000 ככר כסף. ולא בא אליה לשכב אצלה, and he didn't come to be with her. היינו דכתיב, that's what the pasuk means, it says, ולא שמע אליה לשכב אצלה להיות עמה. It says in the pasuk he didn't listen to her, לשכב אצלה, to lay next to her, to be with her. So, the Chazal say לשכב אצלה means בעולם הזה, to lay next to her in this world, ולהיות עמה בעולם הבא, didn't want to be with her in the olam haba. So, we tell this rasha, you're telling that you had a yetzer hara, no, no excuse. A yetzer hara could be very big, but you're not worse than Yosef. He had all these sweet things, and nevertheless he עמד בזה. What does it mean to be with her in olam haba if she's going to Gehinnom? ער קען ענטפערן. Is that what it means, you know, that he didn't want to be with her in Gehinnom? Cuz she's not gonna be in olam haba. Weren't there pshatim, though? I don't understand, what is the פירוש, וואס קען ער ענטפערן, וואס קען ער ענטפערן יעקב איז געקומען צום חלון? No, mistama Yosef was about to do it, Yaakov Yes, mistama, why did Yaakov come to the חלון? Because he was so strong that when it came to a point where he was almost breaking, so Yaakov came, but had he not done all that before, Yaakov probably wouldn't come to him either. He had to put his fingers into the ground. In the ground, yeah. But no, but mistama would be because he did all these הכנות, that's why he was zocheh that Yaakov came to him. And then נראה לי, you know the other pshat that the Beis Halevi says? It says, נראה לי דמות דיוקנו של אביו. He saw the face of his father. So some say נראה לי doesn't mean he saw. When he says נראה לי, Rashi says, \"I like.\" It felt נראה לי, ס'איז מיר געפעלן געווארן. In other words, it's פארגלוסט באמת דמות דיוקנו של אביו. So that's another pshat. I have another pshat. Yeah? I don't know where I heard it. The pshat is that he never looked in the mirror, because it was a big aveirah. For some reason he looked in the mirror that time. And we know that he looked like Yaakov, קלסתר פנים of the father, so he looks in the mirror That's another pshat. He never looked in the mirror? I don't know, he looked in the mirror this Who says he never looked in the mirror? I don't know, he combed his hair A mekubal, it doesn't say he looked in the mirror, it doesn't say he looked in the mirror. Combed his hair without a mirror. The last point has nothing to do with learning Torah. Yeah, but why, but Yosef did learn Torah. No, but they're trying trying to say your terutz of your yetzer hara is not a terutz. But umemila, you could have learned Torah. So they could always answer you, \"Why, you expect me to be Yosef Hatzadik? Expect me to be Hillel, you expect me to be, you expect me to be...\" Yeah. \"That's who's at the door. Okay, I wasn't. I'm not going to be like the tzadik. I'm not...\" Right, with Reb' Zusha, yeah. Someone, I heard this story Reb' Zusha said, \"heyliger bashefer, I'm not afraid that they're going to come למעלה, they're going to tell me, 'Why aren't you like Moshe Rabbeinu?' Cuz I'm not Moshe Rabbeinu. 'Why aren't you like the Baal Shem Tov?' I'm not the Baal Shem Tov. What I'm afraid, they're going to ask me, 'Why aren't you Zusha?'\" So the rasha could say, \"I was\" No, that's \"I was myself.\" See, the way he's saying pshat, olam haba means Gehenom. Uh-huh. Where is she going? Ah! He's not gonna I know what he's getting at. But nimtza, it comes out, הלל

מחייב עניים. Hillel, he's mechayev the poor people, that they have no more excuse, and רבי אלעזר בן חרסום מחייב את העשירים, the rich people, and יוסף הצדיק מחייב את הרשעים. So she's going to olam haba, because she did l'shem shamayim. Right, she was twisted, she turned, so that's why she goes to olam haba because she meant l'shem shamayim, according to that pshat. And she didn't go about it the right way. Huh? She didn't go about it the right way. Exactly. Shkoyach. Yeah.